Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Mark Gill
Mark Gill

A financial analyst with over a decade of experience in credit card industry trends and personal finance optimization.